In my whole life, since high school I wanted to paint, like a “real” artist. Finding my own style and joy in the process. Years passed holding this vision but never actually had the energy and freedom of my own inner space to make it happen. Until last fall.
As I am finishing my 4-months Conscious Silent Solitude I am realizing that so many things I had been postponing in my whole life came to fruition during this time.
I will always celebrate and remember these precious months at the Lake. I continue my path of awakening carrying memories of the ever-changing faced waters, shoveling crazy snow, facing icy roads, wearing hats, scarf and socks for sleeping when it’s -10 C outside. Being completely alone for months and facing my inner demons in complete silence, crying like a totally lost soul then some days later rising as the most powerful being on Earth. Freed from my burdens. Rerpeating these cycles several times.
Laughing a lot, watching Marvel movies towards the end and awake to the fact that they are always trying to tell us the truth…but it’s distorted.
Carrying the memories of all the walks I did in Nature here, visiting an old monk cave from the 11th century for the Winter solstice, bringing water and candle, sing and pray for peace and friendship between nations.
Learning to cook new meals with an “out of the blue” type of creativity, learning to make pasta by hand. Facing the fact that organic food is already a privilege here. Seeing woods disappearing with their natural inhabitants because of the greed of human consumption. Crying on my knees in young forests and asking forgiveness.
Making video messages to the world so I feel that I am not completely alone, writing journals, reading A LOT, doing healings on myself and helping my friend’s here by inviting them to come here with me for a retreat, doing some healing sessions for others and starting writing my book..and the list doesn’t end here only my sentence is.
Meanwhile continually creating paintings since my arrival in last October and opening my IG @spheresofjoy and sharing my work, mostly for myself. To celebrate and acknowledge my great opening to the magical world of art.
I am slowly finishing up my journey here. Closing a magical, powerful, sacred space externally but carrying it within me moving forward on my path of awakening and free creation.
“I AM”
