The wounded grasshopper

Today is exactly 1 month since I have arrived to my immersion. I didn’t actually counted because I really started to live without much technology or following the calendar closely. It took me a while to understand what day it is because I was looking for the reasons why A wounded GRASSHOPPER visited me in and not wanting to leave my door. 

It started right in the morning, as I stepped outside to smell this amazing fresh air here (getting pretty chilly and close to  Zero Celsius at night) and closed the door behind me I saw a green grasshopper on the screen door. After coming in and out several times, I noticed this little thing doesn’t have all its legs. Only 1 on one side and 3 on the other. I will call it as her because I think it’s more chance that it’s a she. Anyhow. I observed it for a while, and as she was not moving much and just trying to dig into the screen door to hide, I sensed that it’s probably the cold and she might just die soon. For a while I didn’t do anything but a question started to work on me. I know they don’t hibernate so why she just didn’t stay on the grass to die but using her life force to jump on my screen door from where she couldn’t leave anymore?
An hour later she was still there, almost in the same position. So, I decided to give her a nicer environment maybe just to die if that’s what’s coming for her. That’s what you see on the first picture. It’s a tomato box with grass and flowers I found outside. She looked like enjoying it more than the screen door but she was not eating or moving away from the box.

I went inside to do my project for the day but was checking her every hour. Not much progress, she was still in the box at different locations but never left the box. I had the feeling that it got a cold shock and her body is switching off so it might be just heading to her destiny of finishing her life cycle. I was ready to let her go. It’s nice to die on a flower afterall….But as we were turning around the Sun and the sky started to darken, the weather started to get colder and colder… as time went by I started to have this uncomfortable feeling of letting this wounded grasshopper die just like that. She came to my door to die but what if I can give her warmth for the rest of her life? I didn’t have a plan, just my will to get her inside where it’s warmer.

So, I improvised. See the picture below. I had a sprouting container (for microgreens) that I used to put her in with the tomato box. I added food from my fridge, some Alfalfa sprouts that I am also eating and small lettuces. I realized I pretty much eat like a grasshopper. We are not that different haha. 

While she was in her new warmer environment I checked the spiritual meaning of meeting a grasshopper. It blew my mind how accurate its meaning was to me. Now, I am certain that the Universe is talking to me in a form of a grasshopper. A wounded grasshopper who actually still can jump. Sending a deeply meaningful message for me that even a wounded one can fly. 

So now, we are sharing the same warm space. Her being a surprising gift as a companion is already a blessing to me. I felt a lack of company in the last two days so I just hope that me offering warmth and food for her makes this situation a win-win.

Thank you Universe and thank you Grasshopper for coming! You’re most definitely found a friend who adores you and takes care of you, as long as it takes. You also must be a special wounded one yourself finding warmth and food and a loving space to be, creating a totally unique experience for yourself where you are loved and taken care of. I’m absolutely certain that you deserve it, you survived much without two legs already. You amaze me! 

UPDATE and final note: 16th of November 

The Little Green grasshopper lived seven days next to me. She ate, she peed&pooped, she jumped and then started to slow down until this morning when she stopped moving much anymore. I recognized that she stopped eating last night as well. I also had a dream with her so I knew she’s leaving. So, when I saw her in the morning fallen on the floor (I totally rearranged her space) I wasn’t so surprised. 

She taught me a lot through how she lived and how she died. She was definitely a spiritual messenger to me. She allowed me to feel deeply again with all the sorrow and with all the love, everything all at once.

The Universe moved with Love as always: she waited for me to wake up in the morning so I can say a proper goodbye. When I found the little grasshopper fallen down next to a cup of greens, I softly placed her on a lavender (inside her container) where she had her last two hours laying on her side, agonizing. I was watching her heart beat, pulsing life and then slowing down until it was over. I’ll be honest, it made me cry watching her dying. But I sensed the Light, the energy in her. That Energy never dies. It was the Universe using its own beautiful light/love energy, forming a grasshopper, and when the time was up, according to the cosmic cycle of life, this Light left the grasshopper’s body and then went back to itself and merge with the Source. It was surprising for a second. I thought the sun came out suddenly as I followed an instant Light flash with my eyes, but then I realized the weather is still very foggy and it’s not the Sun. I knew it was the Light energy leaving the grasshopper’s body and I just saw it!!! … when I looked back to her body, there was no heartbeat anymore in the little green grasshopper body. Light energy lives but the body will perish. It will happen to me as well, one day…