Arriving to my 4-months long immersion

I made it to Europe. My traveling time felt really short this time, even if it’s almost a day to get here. Maybe because I came with perfect timing.
My intention is to be alone for longer period this time, to rest and do art, to heal my heart and feed my mind with reading and let my next upgrade happen if it wants to. I didn’t allow myself to rest in the last 8 yrs for a longer than 1-2 weeks so it was time.

Arriving to this beautiful place a week after being my birth town with friends and family started a bit bumpy.

The first two days here was very challenging. My mind told me all the reasons why it was a terrible idea to come here. It told me to just go back home and by a ticket back already. Thank God for my 22 yrs of meditation practices I didn’t listen to my mind in these cases when it feels like it comes from fear and insecurity. So I let my mind settle. It took another two days to feel free of the mental attack. Not too bad.

The first day I had no electricity so I spent my day in nature. How perfect. Just walking and connecting to trees, intorducing myself to the land. Helped slowing down the mind’s chatter.

On the second day of the mind attack I realized that I have help. I purchased an online ticket for a workshop about self care back at home. I think it was like 2 months ago. My Wisdom Self whispered to me “Just buy it because I will need it.” Man, was I right! Always listen to your intuition, ALWAYS! 

So from the third day on I have been feeling more ease as I’m settling down to this place mentally as well.

And a week later, today, I finally started to paint and I feel like breaking through some kind of mental and emotionally charged shield that was standing between my Heart call and my actual actions.

Now, my current will is to remove all the shields that somehow got built up during the last several years…