Silence is a window through which you can see the Light. Truth is liberating. Everything is Love. “I AM” it. All of it.
I woke up this morning with an urge to open my windows immediately to get some fresh air. I felt like I haven’t been breathing for a very long time and just have started my life. Perhaps it is a new beginning, a rebirth again. Like when I went through a deep transformation during my medicine journey when it was reported back to me that my eye’s color changed. That was the second time I died as Adel and “I”was reborn in my body.
Truth IS liberating. Glimpses are necessary but not enough. We need to integrate. All of it. Everything.
This morning, I woke up with a very clear and strange feeling that the ” I “ is breathing in this body and tries to communicate with the little of me, Adél again. I clearly see that this Infinite power that breathes in me, it’s actually me, the “I” that is Life, Spirit itself and that I met before.
When there is no breath there is no life for humans. This makes sense, doesn’t it. But..and I would adjust it’s half of the truth. Because when there is no breath there’s still Life..Life in a way that is far beyond being only a human and having any shape.
When my breath stopped in June, 2013, I – as a person – disappeared. “I” became the Void, that I called later – when people asked how I felt and what happened to me – I just said: “I” became “I AM” Alive Silence. That Divine Power, the Great Void, the Source of all that exsit, the Spirit, which is some kind of Stillness that holds everything together and moves everything, forming realities. “I” is intelligent, complex and lack nothing. Like unconditional Love.
At that event, in 2013 “I” came back to the body and Adel has changed forever. I only knew Love and Onness for about 8 months. Was no reference point, I ate minimal, mostly some green leaves for the whole day and drank water, walking in Nature with my dog and just simply functioning. That wasn’t integration yet. It was an awakening phase. A powerful, undeniable awakening.
Since then I’m evolving into a new being, every year integrating more and more, learning about this “I” who we all are.
Always learning. Always deepening in this understanding..it’s a great mystery I love exploring.
Today, I woke up again awakened again. This time being completely aware of my breathing. “I” was the breathing. I was that “I” again. This is a very different way of being in the body. It feels sacred, it feels slower. It tells me that being aware of your breathing and become IT is the key for reaching and integrating a deeper knowledge. As a person I(we) have no control of breathing, I(we) don’t possess it, like we don’t possess our bodies. It’s given. Breath is happening and the body is functioning and is always in the movement of appearing and disappearing. I don’t do anything as the person. The other “I” on the other hand lives as this(my) body – mind – soul and this other “I” is beyond all limitations and “I” have all the possibilities. “I” breathe through the body as Life, as Love itself.
Truth is liberating. But what am I gonna do with all these infinite possibilities?